It's Starting To Bother Me.

I don't feel anything for anyone. It's starting to bother me. 


I spoke to my mum today and it was nice. She was nice and we spoke about books and home and the animals and the garden and art and every topic that we have in common but she didn't say "I love you" and things like that bother me. 


I miss being close to her, being the way we were but then she goes and says stuff like "I miss the old Elise" and I hate that because there is no old or new version of me because I cant remember starting and I'm never finished. But most of all, I think it's that she says it like she hasn't changed at all either, like she can stay the person that she is and I have to revert back to the introverted no one who was afraid of everyone, her included. 


To be honest, I hate that insipid little girl.


Apologies for the emotional outburst, I'm tipsy and sad and that's never so good a combination. 


Love to the cyberworld who also doesn't love me back.