"Fuck" Sounds Apt.

So I missed some details.


Like how he kissed my finger-tips during the film. And how my stomach flipped and I felt like it was important to stay in the room.


He held the back of my head in his hands when he kissed me, like I was important enough to be breakable and he told me that he'd liked me for a while, kind of. I said, "Same," and the obligatory joke was made and I think maybe that was to distract. He told me he couldn't do a relationship in college. I told him I couldn't do a relationship period. His excuse was college, mine was because I always end up wanting more.


He told me I could do better, that I could be with anyone so he had no idea why I was with him. I cant remember what I said though. When I curled up next to him, he was worried that I was cold.


And when I was about to leave, he asked me to sit on his lap and kiss him. I did.


Today he brushed some hair out of my eyes and told me that he liked the colour.


It's a constant thought train or mind fuck that's currently fucking my body up too.