Is it bad that I only really want to see two of them? My friends that is, my old friends. Only two make me feel that my existence is fairly accurately justified and the rest just make me sad.
I think I love the other two more than words can express. I wish that love could substantiate the general apathy I feel for the others. But it's not apathy is it, because apathy doesn't make you sick to the core.
College is brilliant and university (for actual) starts next week. I'm excited. But the sad thing is, I only really feel lonely here when I think about the ex. And I shouldn't think about him because it's been a month and he's moved on already with a new girl who's probably perfect in every way. Uncomplicated and not so fucked up. I'm making new friends here, lovely people that I enjoy the company of. Nice people. It's an almost wholesome feeling, me making friends.
I like it.
I have tea now so I'm ok with the world.
Love to cyber space.
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